The moment when you finish watching movie.

I been wondering. Why am I become so sensitive, specifically, i am easily touched even if it was just a movie. yes, JUST a movie. Well, i tried several times not to drag the emotion after the drama ended, but it turn out not to. If it was a sad ending, it took me one week to recover back my  feeling to normal. Can you imagine that? how long it was for me? I am worrying so much that my life chapter would be that way. Worrying that i will be easily sad for a simple thing. 

My Wish

Sure do  she's feeling awkward. Im sorry qila. For such welcoming and show you the bad side of me. 

It always a hope

I know. I know. I shouldn't be dreamin'. But at this state, watching people travelling here and there around the world, makes me dreamin more and more.

you never know

i really think of deleting my twitter account. and you know why? sometimes i feel ashamed, well, no its not that, i mad. mad with those who always complaint this and that. Not only complaint, but sometimes they are spouting the word that shouldnt be tweet there. for example, yesterday, theres a news or well said rumors saying that we're going to face a tsunami. okay, well of course that news bring a catastrophic worry to us. i know some of the news that they're spreading isnt true. and most of it were only rumors. i understand clearly why it happens. when something bad is going to happen, everyone eager to seek information about it. everyone google here and there to know the truth, but not all of them read thorougly what they found on the website. okay, here, skimming and scanning technique comes. they only read the main headlines, then copy and paste wherever people can read. what they think is to let people know about the news. i appreciate their effort. we cant blame them for  their intention. they have a very good intention. they want us to know the news. But, there you go, now our turn. we cant accept everything blindly. we have to double check either it is true or not. it is your own fault if u accept the news blindly w/o checking it first. some people i know on twitter, they double check the news by asking either it is true or not, thats good enough. at least people will start questioning. good right? then, later in time, they'll know what atually happens. but, for some people, they are more likely to criticizing those who share the news. they make fun of it. i really dont like that attitude. if you dont like it, dont bother about it. it wont harm you either. so please people, our prophet SAW remind us to talk about good thing or remain silent.

Afraid

There is one thing that i continuosly worry about.
about that person.
sometimes, when the the text come, i hesitate either to reply or not.
afraid that if im creating my fantasy world without i realize.

confusion.

i always refuse to sit in rapid eventhough the sit is obviously empty because, when suddenly an old people came in, and the sit is not enough for them to sit, i hesitate either to get up, or stay still on the sit. i have an evil thought saying that what if i get up, offering the sit to them, but they dont want. i'll be the one yang malu kat situ. sedih sgt. but then again, if i didn't get up, people will bad mouth to me. saying i have no respect towards them. to them, the older people. i dont know. im confuse. and that is why i always refuse to sit when im in rapid.